Love Idols

I think you owe me
For trying to control me
The way you pushed and pulled
The way you shove and fight!

Have you learned nothing at all, in all this time?
The time that was given for you to decide!
Don’t try to hide, from who you are on the inside.
Be the man by my side or don’t be a man at all!

If you can’t be the man to love and to hold
Then just stay the boy with the fear that controls
Who you love in your deepest of souls or
Believe is the one for you as the years unfold.

If you can’t love me, then don’t hold me!
If you can’t trust then don’t make a fuss.
Because what you’ve become is a whole lot of lust!
And the way this turned out, in my mind was just!
Cause what do we have if we can’t love and can’t trust!

Do you regret the day that we met?
That day we promised we would never forget!
You let me down with your promises and lies!
I see the shame in your deep, probing eyes!
Do you hear my cries?
Is it everything about me, what you despise?

All I have left is a sigh or two
This eternal promise
To hold on too!

God holds me and keeps me!
He always has, he always will!
No matter how far into you I fell
He helps me find a way out somehow!
Out of depression and into the light
He guides me through every day
And into the night!

He is the perfect prince who always finds a way
To shower love all around me
From His path I will never sway!

From my sadness He has brought Joy
Over my insecurities He has brought worth!
Beauty is found in ashes.
The truth is I no longer hurt!

So maybe you don’t owe me!
For there is nothing to owe!
I let you control me and
Now I know!
Through start to finish
A trade I made!
To put you first and
To put God away!

I gave you my heart
With a desire to start
Love that would last
Never would we part!

The lust must be mine
The lack of trust and self worth
I don’t blame you at all
For what we became
Truth be told
I am to blame

So forgive me for trying
To make you be the god that you are not!

By: Tristan B. Snyder