Family

      I am just beginning to realize the important part the family has to play in ones life! I am finally understanding what my mother was always saying. When she spoke about how much that my family would come to mean to me as I grew older. They have came along way from "The worse thing that ever happened to me!". I have learned many lessons growing up. One has been that family will always be there no matter what! Those that are blood related, and those who you trust enough to be as close as family. 

     As I now sit in my grandmothers kitchen listening to my two cousins talk about school,  and plans. I can't help but grin a little as they speak about meeting up during the school year. Making time for each other between college papers, and responsibilities. Making each other a priority, as years go by. 

     The love and protection is an overwhelming feeling. These are people that God has blessed you with! They are with you for a reason. Many lessons and experiences with each other in the past, and the future. I have been blessed with a double portion of love from my family. They are not by any means perfect. We have had  some of the biggest fights! We have called each other names, hurt each others hearts, and even broke the others stuff! But all in all we love each other! I thank God for what I have, and pray for those who are not as blessed. 

Well that is just my thought for the day! Love the family ya got, even if it is hard! 

My 2nd Chance

Is there a place?

A place to escape! 

A way out of my cell?

 

For I  have been stuck! 

For  oh so very long, 

I don't remember the life I lived before. 

Stuck behind the bricks and bars the hold me down.

Never letting me speak, think, or act! 

I feel so weighted down!

The Sun I know was bright ! 

It held a promise of the future.

Guiding me everyday, to what awaited me.

The moon at night left me peacefull 

To dream, to think, to sleep. 

Only leaving me, when it was the sun's turn to shine. 

The protection and love that once was mine

is now something hard to remember. 

Behind all the pain, and hurt that led  me to an open cell. 

Once I was in, it was all over! 

This cell kinda of fits me now

I made is as home like as possible

but it will never be home!

And I have a feeling that I will never get out!  

I have tried breaking the chains!

Pulled, and fought, and made myself bleed!

to have one day just to be FREE! 

Why is it so hard to be free you may ask?

The answer might alarm you! 

I can't get free, because I walked into this cell. 

I shut the door locked myself in, 

and threw away the key. 

I became my own jailer

to sin I became a slave. 

forsook what I had been taught

and tried to do everything my own way. 

So can I be free?

Even if I am the one holding myself in captivity?

Can I just take off the chains, and walk away?

So you are saying I can be free?

I don't  have to live here anymore?

I CAN GO HOME?

oh I am forgiven

Forgiven at last! 

Thank you so much for this wonderful 2nd chance! 

Love Idols

I think you owe me
For trying to control me
The way you pushed and pulled
The way you shove and fight!

Have you learned nothing at all, in all this time?
The time that was given for you to decide!
Don’t try to hide, from who you are on the inside.
Be the man by my side or don’t be a man at all!

If you can’t be the man to love and to hold
Then just stay the boy with the fear that controls
Who you love in your deepest of souls or
Believe is the one for you as the years unfold.

If you can’t love me, then don’t hold me!
If you can’t trust then don’t make a fuss.
Because what you’ve become is a whole lot of lust!
And the way this turned out, in my mind was just!
Cause what do we have if we can’t love and can’t trust!

Do you regret the day that we met?
That day we promised we would never forget!
You let me down with your promises and lies!
I see the shame in your deep, probing eyes!
Do you hear my cries?
Is it everything about me, what you despise?

All I have left is a sigh or two
This eternal promise
To hold on too!

God holds me and keeps me!
He always has, he always will!
No matter how far into you I fell
He helps me find a way out somehow!
Out of depression and into the light
He guides me through every day
And into the night!

He is the perfect prince who always finds a way
To shower love all around me
From His path I will never sway!

From my sadness He has brought Joy
Over my insecurities He has brought worth!
Beauty is found in ashes.
The truth is I no longer hurt!

So maybe you don’t owe me!
For there is nothing to owe!
I let you control me and
Now I know!
Through start to finish
A trade I made!
To put you first and
To put God away!

I gave you my heart
With a desire to start
Love that would last
Never would we part!

The lust must be mine
The lack of trust and self worth
I don’t blame you at all
For what we became
Truth be told
I am to blame

So forgive me for trying
To make you be the god that you are not!

By: Tristan B. Snyder

Hopefully Turning Trash Into Treasure

So transforming my writing into something more than trash, is what I am attempting to do! So if you can get past all the grammatical errors and stupid jokes, you might find something worth reading. I realize I am not a celebrity, and nobody has to read this blog! So it might just stay unread, but word vomit is coming out and I must do something! So something might just hit the fan with this blog, writing for the heck it could get me in trouble. What is one to do when there personal thoughts are on the Internet for the world to read? I could use this for my advantage using it to vent personal frustrations with the world. Or I could use it to just talk about my feeling which is a very poplar choice. Whatever I plan to do, I make a promise to update this blog with something. Fictional or none fictional, poetry or just plane venting! This blog with have it all. Maybe I will sort out who I am as a person,  who knows?