MERRY CHRISTMAS

Dear Love, 

How are you today? I hope this letter finds you well! I pray that humanity has been kinder this Christmas season! I am excited about this upcoming day of celebration, and I was just wondering what it is that you want for Christmas? I know I can't buy you anything, or give anything of earthly value! But what can I give, that would mean so much more? I have a family that safe and healthy this Christmas, and even though many of them are far I still feel them in my heart! I have a home that is always comfortable, and I am wanted... and loved! I have so much to be thankful for, so what can I give to the one who already gave it all away! I have friends that are close, giving to me all the time with nothing expected in return! I have place to work, and a car to drive! I have been given so much. And so many times I appear ungrateful, neglecting to tell the ones I love how much they mean to me. Or even to busy to drop you a line! I wish that this Christmas I could convey how I feel inside, when I think about the blessing that they have become in my life! I wish mostly to show to you  how grateful a human being can be (even though you already know everything).  I hope to shower you with gifts through out the entire year. I wish to give you time, and my ability to serve. I want to remember to say thanks everyday. And not just talk about a relationship, but pursue one! I want to be a messenger for your kingdom. A shoulder to cry on for those who are broken hearted. I want to mean what I say, and do what it is that you have called me too. I want to care more about others then myself! Beating down my Jealous heart, is just one more thing on my to do list. I must learn to be happy for those around me, for there  success is another victory! I want to give you all these gifts, because that is what you truly deserve! If there is anything else you may ask of me, let me be the first to say Yes! I will try to not let you down, and when I do I promise to get back into the game. Time is not our friend, and it's clear that we must all be working for your glory. So this Christmas I will think about what you have done... what you are doing... and what you will complete in the future! I will serve you, for as long as will last! Please except this Christmas gift! Let my tears, and sacrifice be for your Kingdom. MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Love, your daughter

Tristan

P.S. Thanks for always listening, and replying to my letters! 

THE QUEST OF THE HEART

Even in the cold dark room, I will trust that there is light.
Even in the deepest parts of this lonely ocean, I will keep treading water. 
I will not forget what I have been taught since birth,
 that my life is not my own.
Or forget the sacrifice of my Father! 


You do not have to know me well, to know where my allegiance lies! 
That I am totally undoubtedly in love, with the one who made the skies.
He is all the man I will ever need
for He gives me love and perfect peace! 

A companion He is, by my side to the end.
 A Faithful friend indeed
A light to my path, and the guide to my ever changing heart! 

I told you that I am in LOVE,  and this is no small wonder! 

He keeps my deepest secrets, and wipes my tears away. 
And even loves me, on my hardest of days
when I am unlovable, unworthy, and broken! 
He lifts my head to the sky, and calls to my soul
You have been made free, so sing sweet songs and be alive! 

I can't tell you enough about the lover, that I have come to know!
 How truly beautiful am I, when I am loving Him!
 How pure, and unselfish is this ever growing romance. 

This  epic adventure grows more stirring each day. 
I learn His ways, as He teaches me every step of the way. 
I long to learn more about Him, I want to know Him in every way! 
More deeply, more passionate, more desperate then any of my other lovers! 


I can't contain this overall since of Joyousness 
I have never been caught up in a Journey so raw and exuberant
I have never wanted anything more in all my wanderings. 
Then to love Him, and let Him Love me! 


And even when I doubt His presence, and His works! 
I see His touch everywhere from the tallest tree, to the smallest child! 
I will love Him in waiting, even if I wait for eternity. 
I will love him in plenty, and in need! 
For one moment in His presences, can bend any knee
and move the hardest of hearts to compassion.


I will love Him on top of mountain, and in the darkest of valleys. 
I will search for other unlovable people, and bring them to the hem of His garments for healing. 
I will do all this, and yet still realize that I too am in need of saving
Every day, and in every way! 


I must go now, and continue on this quest for the saviors heart

and I can't promise I wont fail you along the way. 
For I have many times been pegged for a sinner
I will try not to trip you up on your journey, for you are my brothers and sisters.
I do encourage you to make a declaration of your love, so that others will know the path that you take!
Maybe someday they too will make a choice to tread these waters and walk these paths! 

Game Plan!!!!!

So I have decided to make some very important changes to my life within the next year. And I know it is really early to start making New Years vows, but hey what can I say I like to start things  a little early. This all began when me and my mother had this crazy talk about life. I have been really down on a lot of things lately! Not very optimistic about the future, I am not really sure why because I know God has plans to prosper me and not harm me. Sometimes I just find this very hard to believe, and I am working on it! I want everything to much, and get frustrated when things don't seem to be falling into place! I with the help of a wonderful mother that I have, have made a chart of things to work on in the next year. I am already hitting the ground working in order to grow in these key area's! And the chart goes as follows:

• Physical - I am going to try my hardest to stay dedicated at a gym, and try to eat healthier. Just trying to include some healthy habits in  my life. 
• Spiritual- I am going to read more books, pray harder then ever, and try to read the Bible from cover to cover. Because I want too, nobody is forcing me. 
• Mental- Find ways to make my life less stressful. And make the most of my time. 
• Social- Contact old friends, and develop new ones... just putting myself out there. 
• Financial- sticking to my budget! 
• Educational- Berean and develop a huger for new things
• Photography- explore all that I can with my potential 
• Family- Spend even more time developing relationships
• Exploring- going to new places, and doing new things. Spending time outdoors! 
• Writing- Start my book, and not stopping! Journaling, and blogging as much as I can! Collecting quotes, and painting! 

I am going to try this next year focusing on becoming a better person, I am giving myself the holiday season to prepare! This is a choice I have made! I am going to ask myself everyday what can I do to achieve my goals! 

Well this is my plan, I hope writing it out will make everything more serious!